Going off again

Pardon the sudden rush of entries but there's many things I want to write about before I leave. I'm leaving in the morning, for the USA. I don't know when I had the thought that I want to visit the USA one day. I just felt it's a place that I have to see. The opportunity came in the form of a summer program this year. The interview was hard but I managed to go through it. I was happy but at the same time, feeling bad that I will be missing out on some important events. The preparation was also tedious, and amidst the countless administrative procedures, I began to question whether it was really going to be worth it. It's expensive as well and I feel extremely guilty about it since most of the money is not earned by me.

Coming back from Cambodia and having only a brief rest in Singapore before I leave for the States, I feel a sense of lethargy. I haven't had the chance to settle down before I have to pack my things again. Throughout all this, my parents have been very supportive of me. I am really grateful to them for their help and I do not know how to thank them. They have just been wonderful.

I only managed one soccer session during this period when I'm back. It's not enough and I will be looking forward to the soccer sessions when I'm finally back for good.

I have only managed to meet up with Zhenyun a few times and I'm going to fly off again. It's not easy being separated and I will miss the fun times we had together. It's difficult not being able to share my experiences with her. It's not easy for her either and I am glad that she's been understanding through all this.

I hope the US will be a great experience and I will come back as a better person. It's going to be a totally different place from Cambodia. I'll try to blog about my experiences while I am there. A few hours more and I'm going to leave this island with all that I'll miss again. Sounds like homesickness and I didn't think I'll be the kind of person to get homesick. But the way I'm feeling right now feels a little like it.