Decisions

I received back my film art test on Monday. I got an A grade for it which was surprising because I did not put in much effort for it. I should be happy but I S/Ued the module which means it will not be reflected in my CAP score. It was a little depressing as I realised I am actually quite talented in film analysis and the tutor likes my essays. It is easy, on hindsight, to say that I should not have S/Ued the module. However, at that time, there was too much uncertainty and a decision had to be made. Unfortunately, I chose the wrong one. Life is about decisions and many a times you are caught in a dilemma between 2 or even more choices. Without too much information, you will be forced to make a decision. Sometimes, things turn out well, sometimes they don't. Our decisons cannot be reversed and they define our lives. We can try our best to make the best decison but ultimately I think some factors are not controlled by us and so in some way, we are not in full control of our lives. I do believe that our lives are controlled by fate. There are so many different possibilities that can happen. We can be born in different countries, different homes, go to different schools, make different friends and so on... Although I'm generally quite happy with my life, I will still want a time machine to reverse some decisions that I made. It will be fun as well to see how I will turn out if I had made different choices.